Monday morning, I rose up from bed with an itch in my belly along with probably a dozen Nymphalidae butterflies (No, not just any butterflies… they’re the prettiest, I think). I said my thank yous, meditated, packed a fridge full of vegetables and fruits, put them in ice coolers and loaded the car with what seemed to be 50 pounds worth of produce and health coach’s paraphernalia.
I arrived more than an hour later at the club with a certain attitude that can only be described as bubbly and somewhat awkward. I introduced myself to the first few people that were arriving and finally, it began. My first juicing class! There were 13 of us in total and the energy beemed inside this huge space.
This crowd was amazing! Superstars! All of them. Super excited to start a path of wellness and physical well being. It got me thinking about my own issues because isn’t that what I usually do?! Pick up on my problems as soon as I hear about somebody else’s.
My champagne problems seem to be created in the back of my mind by some weird belief that I might just screw everything up, everything will blow in my face, naked in front of the entire auditorium sort of feeling and at the end… I remember what it says in the first book of Marianne Williamson “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us…”
It all ended there. My worrisome attitude and lack of joy at this wonderful new experience robbed me of excitement, passion and the great feeling of abundance and gratitude. I completely lacked “attitude-of-gratitude”. I then realized how much I had to work to get to this point and it then felt like the start of something magical. I let it sink in, this was happening and I let the adrenaline do it’s job.
“And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”